well, this might be the shortest entry i have ever written, but this is the answer for the big question mark in my head and also the conclusion of my previous longer entries
and here it is...

“I need a person who really cares about me . who texts me after we went together . who texts me when he wakes up cause he wishes he woke up next to me . who waits till i close the door before he left . who hugs me tight before the night is over . second thought, i don’t need it . i want it .”

taken from Ayu Rianna Amardhi's blog